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[26 Oct 2009|08:04pm] |
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( tell me, did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there )
I made this mistake once. It was a simple, stupid mistake. I fell in love with a friend's sister. We had been sitting on the porch, she leaned over to kiss me and through the window I could see him just glaring at me. I'd done something foreign, something to break the "bro code". It'd been my very first kiss, she was this great big older mystery that seemed to have no clue really the things her just being there, sitting beside me on the couch could make my little 9 year old pulse do. It got easier as I got older, the idea that I'd be better viewing the world behind a camera lens than in front. The first time I saw her, I'd been filming my friends and this band they were putting together, it was like a spoof of that one Tom Hanks movie about that garage band, and she had slipped into the back, small shoulders rounded as she ducked into the garage fridge or a soda. "Dude! Dude, hey!" it was that same look I'd gotten from my childhood friend, the don't you dare you know better. The untouchable.
I made this mistake again, running across the grass nearly tripping over my own feet to stand in front of her. She'd just poured her heart out in front of the camera, the only time really I could get her to open up to me. Like there was this save barrier, and she told me all about these years, the things that kept her up at night and all I wanted to do right then and there was rush across the grass and the people studying to feel her lips against mine. She could list the things I liked, things I hated, the things that made me sick all under her breath without effort. She knew the music that made me laugh and the songs that could make me cry, and she was the only one with that look in her eye that dared me to step outside of the boundaries.
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[26 Oct 2009|07:21pm] |
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out of luck and out of tune, half a day and I'm confused. let me wash away the blues, I still ain't over you. damn the day that I forgot, came so close and almost lost. it's been one year and fourteen months and I still ain't over you. hey, I'm the blood in your veins. I'm the cold when it rains, I'm your heart when it breaks. time, no it ain't on our side, I'm the truth to your lie, love your tears when you cry. back and forth and side to side, right ain't wrong if wrong ain't right, I will love you day and night cause I still ain't over you.
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